My image for today's blog seems to sum up my feelings these last few weeks...
Have you ever been in a position where you were just tired and over it?
Like over everything in life...
Recently, I even gotten to the point, where I was actually tired of myself.
Yes, I did say I was tired of myself.
And contrary to what you maybe thinking, I wasn't putting myself down. I was actually motivating myself to something bigger and better than what my current life circumstances were showing me at the time.
I got tired of seeing other people go after their dreams in life and I wasn't doing the same wholeheartedly for myself.
I got tired of seeing people trying to make strides in the right direction whether it was physically, financially, spiritually, romantically or emotionally - setbacks and all. And in instead of using that to inspire me, I simply shutdown altogether.
I got tired of hearing my own excuses as to why I wasn't making the proper changes within my life.
This made me ponder on what good was it to know you had a calling on your life to help others and make a positive impact - in addition to making a good coin in the process - if you weren't going to give it your absolute all?
And leave it to good ole social media for being such a magical tool…
It can lead others into thinking you are actually doing bigger and amazing things by a simple status or picture post without knowing the full story behind it.
For me, everyone just knew my life was so excellent and being productive with getting my brand and my life altogether. But how many of you know there’s a difference between staying busy versus being productive!
When you actually start self reflecting on just how much you aren't doing, you no longer continuing lying to yourself and really begin making changes for the better.
Now lets keep in mind, it’s only natural for us to get discouraged along the way because life has a tendency of throwing us a lot of curveballs. This is especially the case when we get into a good stride.
To personally share a little tidbit of what's being happening in my life, let's just say my summer has been eventful to say the least. On a good note, I actually got the chance to visit California for the first time ever and had a freaking blast! Had some wild and crazy nights with some new friends in parts of Chicago I normally wouldn't hangout at. Reconnected and restored a few relationships that have fallen off course. And last but certainly not least, I got to connect with some pretty dynamic women at my 2nd annual Hey Mz. Lady focus group!
This year I was able to upgrade from my mother’s basement to actually host it at the prominent Hyatt Place Hotel located in Chicago’s prominent Hyde Park neighborhood. In my Tamar Braxton Voice, "Look At God!! Won't He Do It!!” lol.
Everything had been going so well for me and it really helped motivate me to get excited about the new changes and revamp for HeyMzLady.com!
However for every step forward in the right direction, here comes life with a few of those curve balls to take me just a few more steps backwards...
Right in the midst of relaunching the site, a few of my team members had experienced a few personal setbacks or even accomplishments that ultimately detoured my initial plans for Hey Mz. Lady. Not to mention, recently I received one of the worst doctor’s reports given to me just this past Monday. On top of that, a few minor financial obstacles and lastly, what I like to call personal terror attacks within myself.
It just seemed like once again life was testing me to see if I would sink or swim in the ocean of negativity. Which, had been my track record in the past.
This week alone, I have been getting confirmation that God is simply testing me and maybe you too with just how tough we really are...
How bad do we really want the desires of our heart? Are we willing to be obedient, sacrifice, become resilient, change our thoughts & behaviors, set new boundaries and most importantly have faith that all things will eventually work in our favor?
Or do we simply throw in the towel at the first sign of adversity...
I'll admit, for the past several years depending on the circumstance and which realm in my life the tpegillum fell on, I would’ve given up in a heart beat. Not necessarily given up all together, but would constantly fight with the start and stop spirit within me.
I realize, I am faced with the decision of being 100% in or 100% out in fulling living my life's path… This includes accepting the mountaintop highs and the deep down valley lows. In life you have to learn to deal with both with an open mind & spirit.
Instead of faking it until I make it, I’m simply going to FAITH IT UNTIL I MAKE IT!!!!!
And the same should go for you!
What is it that your tired of within your own life? What's that thing you can't necessarily quit wholeheartedly because the greater outlook is far better than current obstacles you are facing? How many times have you given up on yourself before becoming absolutely fed up with yourself for having continuos negative after negative thoughts?
You owe it to yourself to acknowledge your feelings, but never letting them dictate your actions...
Like my #HMLGETEMGIRLOFTHEDAY states: It's okay to get frustrated. It's okay to get tired. It's even okay question your life's purpose. But it's never okay to give up, settle or quit!!!
Someone is waiting for you to be present, in order for them to get exactly what they need, in order to move forward in their own life.
Your life isn't just for you, but it is also to touch, motivate and inspire others as well.
Please share your thoughts and experiences with today’s topic in the comments below.
And as always ladies, stay beautiful, blessed and divinely favored!!!