So God gave me the vision and the direction that He wanted me to do in order to accomplish this task. And even though He specifically told me not to worry about anything else, of course I had to question and still try to do things my way.
Sure enough, every time I did, my ideas surely crumbled right before my eyes. It was like God kept telling me, "How many times am I going to have to repeat myself to you?". In other words, stick to the vision I gave you?
I then began to think about the cost of hosting a conference and the lack of funds or a team I had to accomplish such a huge feet. Granted, even with the group of people I did ask to help me with Hey Mz. Lady because I wasn't in the clearest state of mind I wasn't able to be the best leader to them during that time either. But regardless of the lack of help or funds, I knew I had to complete this mission. So I sincerely told God, if this was His will provide favor & provision throughout this process.
If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.
I don't know why we have to get to such extreme lows in our lives just to see how awesome God is, but He definitely knows how to get our attention.
Once again, I made the decision to surrender and submit to His will. Only this time, it was as though everything began to fall into place. Ideas flowed like never before. Financially, funds and ideas of how to attract more funds began to come to me. People I didn't even know volunteered their time, knowledge and insight to me without me even having to ask them.
I could just imagine God looking down and saying to me, "Oh ye of little faith. If only you would've trusted me sooner"... I'm sorry, but I know He was laughing and saying this about my hardheaded behind a whole lot within this process and my life as a whole lol!
But in all seriousness, the vision and provision was already there. God ultimately was just waiting on me to get in partnership with Him so that this mission could get accomplished. I also had to remember that this mission was bigger then me and my simple little problems. While I was thinking this was being done to help solve mine, I now see God used this to answer the call of other women in need of this event to help motivate, inspire and push them into their purpose as well.
God may give you the vision, but just realize it's to serve a bigger need that you may or may not even recognize during the process...