Somewhere along the way of this journey, it felt like I was losing the fighter within me or so I thought. It felt like the enemy was attacking my mental state from every direction. Before when this would happen, I would find myself down and out, sad, crying every second and withdrawn from just about everything and everyone. But little did I realize, I was actually learning how to fight more effectively through spiritual warfare instead.
I learned that not everything I was going through deserved a response. I learned that through prayer, God can swiftly put an end to the foolishness when the enemy tries attack. But most importantly, I learned how to affirm myself through God's word and also what I knew to be true about myself.
Don't get me wrong, I was still worried and concerned how things were going to workout within my multiple situations. I still had no clue how this $20k debt was going to get paid and on top of that I was so ready to leave my job it wasn't funny. The old me was quick to stay in a negative headspace and just complain about my situation to anyone that would listen. But I knew if I allowed myself to stay in that place, I wouldn't be able to accomplish everything I needed to do within this year. I also knew, I wouldn’t be of good service to my clients either. I guess the new fighter within me was so determined to win that any form of negativity that came my way I automatically began to shut it down.
To help manage through it, I allowed myself a good 5-10 minutes to have my mini meltdown, but after that time was up all pity parties came to an end. I strongly believe for many of us, it's easier to stay in that negative headspace because we have been operating within that lifestyle for so long. Also for many of us, these negativities have been spoken over our lives so much that it has almost become second nature to just believe the lies that we've heard. But that is a lie from the BIGGEST PIT of HELL!
As matter of fact, a friend of mine once gave me the best advice on the way to combat this storm. Her exact words were, "When you feel at your lowest and don't know what else to do begin to Praise the Hell Out of your situation for a BREAKTHROUGH!”.
“But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeks such to worship him.”
Want to make the enemy real mad? Start giving God a praise party every time the enemy tries to attack you! Not only will he not know what to do with himself, but God will go to work on your behalf even faster just because you trust Him and are willing to acknowledge that He is Bigger than your circumstances!