Throughout this year I must say, some of the directions God was telling me to do to combat my circumstances were down right nuts to my logical functioning. Mind you, I'm fully aware that we are spiritual beings living within a human body. Naturally, God wants to speak to us at our spiritual core versus the outer shell of facts and logical thinking. The way He operates and functions will ALWAYS defy logical reasoning at every opportunity.
But I had made up in my mind that whatever God told me to do this year, that I was going to be obedient regardless. I promise you, after a while you get tired of getting this thing called life wrong over and over and over again. So instead of doing things my way that often led me to no where, I consciously decided to give God's way a chance.
God gave me clear instruction with just about everything within this year. And yes, sometimes I could hear His voice as clear as day, while other times His spirit moved me to do something specifically or gave confirmation through other people. Either way, He was showing me that I don't have to take drastic measures to make detrimental sacrifices in order to “fix a problem” that He already had a solution for...
1 Samuel 15:22
But Samuel replied, “What is more pleasing to the Lord: your burnt offerings and sacrifices or your obedience to his voice? Listen! Obedience is better than sacrifice, and submission is better than offering the fat of rams.
So the first instruction was to get back into tithing because if I could trust Him with my finances, then He could trust me with the plans and promises He had for my life in 2016. The second was to plan the conference and put my all into that. The third was to stop worrying about my love life and to be completely focused within the present because He already has my husband and is preparing the both of us for one another (I'm still waiting on that one to be revealed). Fourth, He limited my time off from work. Usually I take a few little getaways or at least take a break from work in general, but this time around I was moved to let my paid time off build up this year taking as little time off as possible. But one of the biggest confirmation and instruction He gave me was to begin writing my resignation letter to my job.
I know right???
Bet you weren’t expecting that twist!…
But it's true!
I failed to mention that when I first started this job God had already told me that I would be here less than a year. I wasn't quite sure why He said that at the time and honestly they were helping me to pay back my student loans. So in my mind, I didn't plan on going anywhere for at least another year. But as time started to reveal how stressful and overwhelming the job was, I began to tell God, "You were right! When can I go?!”.
This goes to shows how powerful our words are. When I first started working with this company a few years ago, I already knew that it wouldn't be a place where I would stay for very long. My exact words were, “I’ll stay for about four or five years, let them pay off my student loans and then when I leave I only plan on working for myself,”.
Wise words satisfy like a good meal; the right words bring satisfaction.
The tongue can bring death or life; those who love to talk will reap the consequences.
So in May I took a week off just to regroup and take sometime for myself, but within that time of self-care I decided to follow God's instruction again an write that letter. It stayed plastered on my wall for months as a reminder that this would only be temporary and to get ready for the new chapter of life that was awaiting me.
There was another specific instruction that God gave me that goes along with this part of the story as well. But I'll have to share that with you a little further down the line within this month. Trust, it's the best instruction of them all and I'm bursting at the seams as to when I can share it with you. But for now I'm going to continue on this track of obedience and will have to share that with you later!
FYI - Don't assume you know how the story will end because I promise you spirirutally it will blow your logical mind away!