When we often think about being isolated from others, we typically think this must be a lonely process. Well, I beg to differ.
You see for the greater part of this year I felt extremely isolated from others. Some of my closest friends had moved literally all over the country. My job kept me so tied up with work that it made having a social life quite difficult. Most importantly, with nothing but my conference on my mind, isolation just honestly came with the package of 2016.
Did I miss ripping and running with my friends or going from one speaking engagement or big event to the next, of course! But on the other hand, I received so much clarity about my life as a whole just spending time with me and God. And because God didn't have to compete with so many outside influences, it felt as though the revelations came easier for me to see, accept and most importantly make the proper changes as well.
It was during this time period where I had to get really honest with myself. Yea I was a "good person", but this didn't mean I was not of fault myself. God revealed to me that there were many times when I was disobedient to specific instruction He told me to do, that I may have been too hard on some people that He placed in my life and sadly that I was looking for validation from others versus Him and Him alone. Not to mention, I had step up considerably with my work ethic especially in my time and organizational management skills to better support Hey Mz. Lady. Yes, these were just some of the hard lessons I learned about myself during this 9 month timeout.
For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.
By having this time to myself I was able to seek and hear from God to better myself through Him. I began to see myself as He saw me. In that realization alone, I knew that I would never be perfect, but I could perfect the art of continuously dying within myself in order to grow more in Him. Not the easiest pill to swallow, but definitely the most rewarding and beneficial.
I pray I won’t need another timeout like this again, however I am becoming more conscious regarding continuing to give God that space and time to have more genuine candid conversations with him.