Now while I was able to become a great worker bee for Hey Mz. Lady and just found a way to push through for the 9-5, somewhere along the way I stopped taking care of myself. I preached self-care to everyone else, but forgot that this same notion should've applied to myself also.
Don't get me wrong, I knew 2016 was going to be a year of great sacrifice for me. But still, the only thing I do regret about this year was that I didn't take more time out just to enjoy myself. Friends would invite me out, but I would give some lame excuse why I couldn't go anywhere. My weekends that use to be packed with the perfect balance of work and play all of a sudden just became work related. And even something simple like going for a walk or taking a nice drive somewhere became nonexistent. It felt like my life became a never-ending play of Rihanna song of “Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work.” Clearly I didn't give my brain a break.
And yes, while I do believe in working hard there has to be a place for fun and play time as well. People were always saying to me, "Well your social media says differently. You always seem on the go and having the time of your life,".
Can I be completely transparent with you?
Social media can make anyone's life look amazing and one to make others envious of...
I wasn't living my life for the Gram or FB. For the few fragments of life that I did step out and enjoyed this year, I did share for all to see. But what you didn't see was me crying myself to sleep after still worrying about how all my burdens would be lifted. You didn't see frustrated that other people were free to enjoy their time with friends and family, while I felt I had to stay focused on the vision God gave because I was terrified of messing up yet again. That all my money either went towards bills or Hey Mz. Lady, which left for very little funds to do things that I usually enjoy. That's the side of social media that people forget. It can be a pretty picture of what we want the world to see about us and not the actual full truth. But they say a picture is worth a 1000 words and perhaps a video is worth a million.
I say all this to say, that while my professional life was trying to come together, I almost lost the fun side of me in the process. I had to remember, I was more than just a worker for the 9-5 or the machine behind Hey Mz. Lady. I was a person that needed to still enjoy life even when my circumstances didn't reflect the best of what life had to offer. That yes I made mistakes, but I didn't have to continue to punish myself for them...
So I recommend having fun, because there is nothing better for people in this world than to eat, drink, and enjoy life. That way they will experience some happiness along with all the hard work God gives them under the sun.
So I’m back to being more conscious of finding a healthy balance of work, rest and play. As God's children there are so many layers and dimensions of what makes up us as an entire person! To only tend to a portion of our entire being would be a slap in the face to our Creator and a waste of a life that is not fully lived in every aspect.
Self-care is a requirement of becoming your absolute best version of yourself daily!