11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare[a] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. 13 You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile.
There are always some chapters in our lives that scares the living daylights out of us. For me, these would include reopening a relationship from the past and stepping out on faith in having to quit a job again. I'll get into the first scare a little later, so for now we can start with walking away from the 9-5.
Yes, I've had to leave a job before. I was in the midst of my graduate program just one internship away from graduation. To make a long story short, my former employer refused to work with my school schedule which put me in a position of having to walk out on faith leaving my job altogether.
Mind you, I always consult with God before making any major decision. Not to mention, God was quite aware as to how unhappy I was there anyway. So I wrote a date down on my calendar and promised myself that come rain or shine that would be my last day working at this company.
I asked God to give me a sign as to when it was time for me to put in my notice and from there I would simply follow His lead. By me being a planner by nature, I researched ways I could still get unemployment if I was to quit and then budgeted my refund checks from student loans to live off of for the rest of that time.
Ultimately when it was all said and done, God gave me the confirmation to put in my notice and my last day fell exactly on the day I placed on my calendar. Not only that, God made a way for me to get my unemployment, live off my loans, have one amazing summer that included traveling and when everything was starting to run out God gave me first job in my field. Again, don't tell me what my God can't do!
So obviously, the time came again for me to have to step out on faith and leave another 9-5. When I first took on this job God told me clearly that I would be here less than a year. I was just hoping it wouldn't require me to quit again. I was praying that maybe God would allow me to get laid off, with a nice severance package and just let me leave with ease. But of course not... God wanted me to Trust Him yet again and walk away altogether.
I explained to God that I'm a real adult this time around, which also meant I had real adult bills - as if He wasn't already aware. I'm not going to lie, I was little afraid. But when I thought about how miserable I was at my job then versus my fear of leaving, my misery outweighed my fear hands down. And so on October 17th I put in my official 2 weeks notice and began this new journey of making Hey Mz. Lady my full time gig. I didn't have it all figured out, but I laid out my budget, prayed to God for the framework of new Hey Mz. Lady initiatives and most importantly I asked God to continue to provide for me just like He did before.
I was scared, but I did it anyway!
And for those of you that ask how or why would I leave a guaranteed salary with great benefits to work on a passion project with no money coming in just yet, all I can say is GOD HAS NEVER FAILED ME YET! So after all He's done for me thus far, I couldn't slap God in the face by not trusting Him in this moment. Since leaving my job, I've been able to see God's vision for me in 2017 quite clearly and received the much needed rest as well. God is so good!
Do I expect this time period to be easy, not at all!
Do I expect it to be worth it, absolutely!
Now when it comes to reopening relationships from my past, let's just say quitting my job was way easier (laughing but very serious)! God has already told me what will happen so in the meantime, I’m remaining obedient to the clear instruction He has given me regarding how to handle this experience too. At the end of the day, may His will be done and not my own…
The moral of this reflection is that when God gives you instruction despite how apprehensive you feel or how crazy it may sound, take a deep breath and still do it afraid! This is your way of telling God, I trust you! Lord, I love you! I promise, God will reward your obedience!
What clear instruction is God giving you right now? He's always talking to you, but are you even open enough to actually listen...